Through the years, dealing with his condition caused from the injury when he was 10, there was never a question that he was my gift from God. I had been trained my whole life for this very time.

When I was almost 17, I was taking care of my dying father while my mother worked. I had dealt with all the issues of living with a diabetic with my mother. I had to take care of her when she was dying, or anytime that she needed help. I was in training my whole life.

I was on a forum for Chris' condition and people asked me why I had stayed, many of their mates had abandoned them when they got bad. My first words were that I had made a vow, a contract, a promise, and you don't break any of those. My second words were, because I love him.

When he was able, he worked. When he was able I didn't need anything. If I needed a shelf built he built it. If I needed carpet laid, he laid it. Nothing was to great when he was able. He would even have dinner ready for me if I was working and he was home. I always tell people, he is not perfect, he is just perfect for me.

Lately, he has been feeling really down. He says he is not depressed, but sometimes it appears that way. When Covid-19 hit, I realized that I had isolated myself from life. I had closed myself off from the outside world and what I saw everyday was all I really needed to be concerned with. I also realized that I had slowly stopped praying or talking to My Holy Father.

When we moved into this little trailer, 13 and a half years ago, there was never a place for me to hide. Even though we live close to a creek, and I still love the water, there are too many people and too much activity for me to find peace and quiet. I had stopped hiding, to sit quiet and listen.

Dannielle introduced me to one of her friends that is closer to my age. Her friend introduced me to the Bible Study Group. I bought a Bible and started reading and going online. The Bible Study group hooked me up with some really good prophetic sites and I have been growing stronger ever since. I am not completely back where I started as a kid, and a friend recently told me to be careful about thinking 'where' I want to be. So I am gonna listen to the voice asking "Where are you" and my answer will always be "Here, 'I AM', stay with me."

I started building a website for a client, and we were talking about life, and I started telling him some of my stories. He said I should write a book, and I told him I always felt like I had a book in me. I laughed it off and thought how many times I have tried to start the project, only to let it die away.

I came home from talking to him and in the back of my mind I heard, 'Open your computer and just start typing.' I wrote for about 10 hours a day for 3 days and finished my first draft. It took a few weeks to get this one finished and online. I have enjoyed every moment that I written, knowing I was doing as My Father had instructed.

In closing I will say, Dannielle and I have a wonderful relationship today. Debbie lost Buster suddenly in April 1, 2014. We lost Debbie in April 8, 2017 And my Janie just last year. Debbie made sure I had a car before she passed. He last act of taking care of me. Chris and I having been having more little arguments lately, and I even considered leaving. My client asking me to do this, was the best way for Heavenly Father to remind me, that nothing could make me break my commitment, and I still fall in love with him again almost daily.

My point is, I don't know if this is any good, or if it is going to help anyone, I was just doing what I was instructed to do by a higher power, I was typing.

I turned my back on God, but he never left my side. And to quote Church International, Pastor and Prophet Robin(s) Bullock,